Monday, March 12, 2012

رقم 70 مفروض علينا ... مفروض مفروض مفروض ييييياااا ولدي

رقم 70 مفروض علينا ... مفروض مفروض مفروض ييييياااا ولدي

مش غريبة ان معظم المرشحين لرئاسة الجمهورية عمرهم تجاوز ال70 سنة...!!!! هو الرقم دة ورانا ورانا واللا ايه!!!!

ازاي بني آدم معظم عمره وراه حيفكر في بناء مستقبل للبلد!!! اذا كان هو خلص عمره وعدى السن القانونية للعمل،

يعني هو في مرحلة التقاعد!! يبقى منين حيجيله قوة ومقدرة على بناء أي شيئ؟؟؟؟؟؟؟

لما درست وقريت تاريخ مصر كويس، على مدار 7000 سنة، لقيت انه اللي حكموا مصر ونهضوا بيها كلهم كانو اصغر من 70 بكتير!!! لان عندهم الطموح للبناء وعمل شيئ، وحافز لانهم يبنوا ويحققوا امجاد للبلد ولنفسهم!!! انما اللي عدى سنه ال70 دة في رأيي المتواضع مش حيلحق يشوف حاجة!!!

فيه نقطة تانية كمان، اللي ابو 70 سنة شب وشاب على نفس النظام اللي احنا رفضناه، اللي شيلناه،، يبقى طبعا ما فيش تغيير حيحصل!!! كل اللي حنبقى عملناه هو تغيير اسامي وبس... نبقى شيلنا "الدو" وحطينا "شاهين" بداله!!!! شكرا شكرا!!!

انا بس حكتبلكوا شوية اسامي من ملوكنا ورؤساءنا اللي حكموا مصر على مدار 7000 سنة وانتوا احكموا بنفسكوا:

· مينا موحد القطرين حكم مصر وهو 18 سنة ومات وهو 63 سنة

· أحمس تولى وهو عنده 10 سنوات وهزم الهكسوس وهو عنده 18 سنة ومات وهو 35 سنة

· تحتمس تولى عرش مصر وهو عنده 26 سنة ومات وهو 82 سنة

· رمسيس: اغلبهم كانوا في سن ما بين 20 و 35.

· الاسكندر الاكبر اسس اعظم امبراطورية وهو 30 سنة

· عمرو بن العاص فتح مصر وعند50 سنة ومات وهو عنده 93 سنة

· صلاح الدين الايوبي حكم مصر وهو عنده 31 سنة

· قطز حكم مصر سنة واحدة و كان عمرة حوالي 39 سنة

· بيبرس حكم مصر وهو 39 سنة وحقق انتصارات غير مسبوقة

· محمد على وعائلته حكم مصر وهو سنه 35 سنة ومات وهو عنده 79 سنة

· جمال عبد الناصر حكم مصر وهو عنده 36 سنة

· انور السادات حكم مصر وهو عنده 52 سنة وهو يعتبر اكبر رئيس لمصر من 7000 سنة

وأرجوا تشوفوا غيرهم من ملوك ورؤساء مصر اللي كان لهم دور فعال في النهوض بمصر... واللي التاريخ حفر اسمائهم في ذاكرتنا!!!

الي الحبيبة مصر..... البقاء لله

Sunday, January 15, 2012

البرادعي بين نعم ولا!!!

البرادعي بين نعم ولا!!!

احزنني كثيرا خبر د. البرادعي عن اعلانه عدم ترشحة لانتخابات رئاسة الجمهورية، فبالرغم من اختلافي الجذري معه في بعض الآراء والتوجهات، الا انني اكن له كل الاحترام والتقدير.

كنت أرى أن الدكتور البرادعي مثال للرجل النزية المحب لوطنه ذو اليد النظيفة. كما كنت ارى ايضا ان في ترشحة لرئاسة الجمهورية خطوة ايجابية لمصر وللمصريين، لاعطاء المصريين الفرصة للاختيار على اسس، وليس سياسة الامر الواقع، وان يقتصر الاختيار على حزب الاغلبية فقط..!!! وهذا يعني الرجوع لما كنا به قبل 25 يناير!! سياسة حزب الاغلبية والحزب الواحد الذي يحكم ويحاسب الحاكم في نفس الوقت!!

وللاسف مش بس كدة، لكن كمان يمثل الشعب ويؤلف الحكومة، ويعمل الدستور ويراقب الحكومة!! بأختصار، حزب الاغلبية حيبقى بيعمل كل حاجة!!

يعني ايه دة؟ يعني ببساطة غيرنا حزب بحزب، وحاكم بحاكم، انما ما عملناش حاجة علشان نغير النظام، لأن النظام هو هو.. نظام الفرعون الاوحد كالعادة.

عزيزي دكتور البرادعي، كنت اتمنى ان اراك احد المرشحين لرئاسة مصر، ولكني ادرك واتفهم موقفك... بل وأحترمة... فلا يصح الا الصحيح، والديمقراطية الناقصة ديكتاتورية مقنعة...!!! واتمنى ان يكون موقفك ورقة ضغط لتحريك المياة الراكدة مرة اخرى، وتعديل للمسار الصحيح..!!

تحياتي واحتراماتي!!!

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

25 يناير 2011 & 2012 الثورة وذكراها

25 يناير 2011 & 2012 الثورة وذكراها
زي اليومين دول... كان الترتيب لمسيرة من كل ميادين وأحياء مصر، و كان محدد لها يوم 25 يناير، اللي كان عيد الشرطة.
يوم عيد الشرطة واللي حصل كان سلمي تماما!!! بدأ بمسيرة، وكان خلالها تصفيق حاد للشرطة اللي موجودة في الشارع واللي كانت متواجدة حوالين المسيرات..!!!

بدأت الفكرة من على الفيسبوك لما دعت صفحة "كلنا خالد سعيد" للمسيرة السلمية...!!
لكن لأن العنف وسوء الإدارة اللي كان موجود في البلد هو اللي كان سائد، حصل اللي حصل يوم 28 يناير،، وسيبوا علينا البلطجية... ونزلنا لجان شعبية و...و...و... الباقي طبعا انتوا عارفينه.
أنا كل اللي أتمناه إن أحداث 28 يناير واللي بعدها ما تتكررش تاني... لاني شايفة بوادر غير مبشرة.. ويمكن يبقى فيه دم كتير!!!
يا عقلاء مصر... رجاء رجاء رجاء... ما نكررش الغلطات السابقة ونقع في نفس الفخاخ والكمائن المنصوبة لنا... عايزين نتجنب الدم والمشاكل اللي ممكن تحصل
...!!!
وعشان افكركوا باللي حصل قبل كدة واللي ممكن يستغل لإفشال كل اللي بيتعمل هو الآتي:
· أحداث 28 يناير والسرقة والنهب والبلطجة الحرق
· موقعة الجمل
· المشاكل اللي حصلت في صول وأطفيح ومحاولة إثارة الفتنة بين أطياف الشعب (لازم نبقى انصح من كدة)
· أحداث ماسبيرو
· أحداث محمد محمود والوقيعة بين الشعب والجيش، وقصة الطرف الثالث
· أحداث مجلس الوزراء وحرق تراثنا في المجمع العلمي
· اللي بيحصل كل يوم من بلطجة وسرقة وقلة أدب في الشارع
· أحداث ست البنات
· وغيره...وغيره
اعتقد إن إحنا خدنا وفهمنا الدرس كويس، ولو عايزين مصر قوية، لازم تبقى سلمية، ولازم نبقى قد المسئولية ونحمي سلميتها... إحنا عايزين بلد قوي ووطن جميل وشعب متعلم ونظيف من جوة ومن برة!!! عايزين نرجع القيم لمصر، عايزين نشتغل ونبني بدل ما نكسر!!
أنا بلغت رسالتي، وأتمنى إنها توصل لذوي العقول المستنيرة والقلوب اللي بتحب مصر..!!!
بحبك يا بلادي!!!

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

آآآآآه ه ه ه ه يا بلد أكستــــرررررريييييــــــــمممم

عجبتني اوي فقررت انشرها في مدونتي:):)
هو احنا يا قناة التت والرقص يا اخوان و سلفيين !!!
هو احنا يا نقاب و برقع يا مش لابسين !!!
هو احنا يا عشوائيات و زبالة يا فلل و قصور ببسين !!!
هو احنا يا ثورة و تحرير يا نقول للظالم اسفين !!!
هو احنا يا دقن و جلابية يا محشش بيسب الدين !!!
هو احنا يا نألش و ننكت يا ننكد عل البنى ادميين!!!
هو احنا يا اما انترناشونال يا مدارس بتعوم فى الطين !!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!حااااجة تنقط.....يا بلد اكستريييييم

Sunday, November 6, 2011

آه يا ليل يا زمن،،،!!!!

آه يا ليل يا زمن،،،!!!!

النهاردة اول يوم العيد،، وكل القناوات جايبة الافلام المعتادة،، زي صغيرة علحب، وغيره،،، وانا بأقلب القناوات لفت نظري فيلم بقالي كتير ما شفتهوش،، فيلم آه يا ليل يا زمن لوردة ورشدي أباظة،،

لما تشوفوا الفيلم دة، وهو عن قصة حقيقية حصلت فعلا،، حتعرفوا ثورة 23 يوليو 1952 عملت ايه في ولاد الناس،،،

التأميم،، والجعانين اللي مسكوا البلد،،، ومراكز القوة،، وتأليب العيش والنهب،،، وولاد الناس ف

ضلت مش لاقية تأكل...

لما شفت الفيلم دة عرفت ان التاريخ بيعيد نفسه تاني وتالت ورابع،،، وحنفضل في نفس الحلقة المفرغة...

احنا بنبهدل الحاجة الكويسة اللي في ايدنا ومش عارفين قيمتها،،، الناس الكويسة بتدخل السجن،، وسايبين الحرامية والبلطجية وقطاع الطرق برة.... سايبين الفساد زي ما هو.. الرشوة اللي أول السنة كانت جنية دلوقتي بقت 1000 جنيه،،، ومحدش عايز يشتغل أو يعمل اي حاجة...

أنا بأوجه كلامي للعقلاء اللي في البلد،، واللي ممكن يفهموا الكلام ده... لازم نحافظ على الكويس اللي في بلدنا،، وننميه،، ونحاول نبني ونفهم الناس اللي مش فاهمة... دة صحيح حياخد وقت ومجهود،، بس لو كلنا حطينا ايدينا في ايدين بعض حنقدر نعمل حاجات كتيرة اوي...

اللي حاصل دلوقتي تماما زي اللي كان حاصل قبل كدة،،، صراع على الكراسي والسلطة،، ومحدش بيفكر في مصلحة البلد،، واللي بيحاول يعمل حاجة كويسة للاسف يا اما بيزهق،، او بيتقبض عليه.... التاريخ بيعيد نفسه تاني وتالت ورابع... انا خايفة اقول انه "مافيش فايدة"

يا ريت حد يكدبني ويقولي ان فيه امل ان حد ييجي يكون بيحب البلد ديه،،،، وزي ما قلت قبل كدة: دايما كان اللي بيحب البلد ديه مش منها،، مع الاسف...

Sunday, October 9, 2011

رجعنا لنقطة صفر تاني...!!!

رجعنا لنقطة صفر تاني...!!!

احنا بنرجع لوراء وللا ايه؟؟ ليه اللي بيحصل دة ولصالح مين!!

لصالح مين ان ولاد بلدنا يموتوا، وللاسف مش في الحرب، لكن في الهبل وبأيد مصريين زيهم...

احنا كدة بنهدم بلدنا... ومش حنقدر نبنيها بسهولة..!!

لو عايزين بلدنا... لازم نقف ونحاسب نفسنا.. اللي بنعمله حيودينا على فين...

انا فعلا مش شايفة قصادي غير طريق مظلم.. وعر... ومالهوش آخر...

يااااا خساااارة يــــااااااا مــــصــــررررر.... يا خـسـاااااارة!!

يا خسارة دانتي فيكي كل حاجة، لكن ولادك مش عايزين يعملوا لك اي حاجة علشان تفضلي مـــصــر!!!

كان نفسي اشوفك على طول عروسة حلوة بفستان ابيض،،، انا شايفاكي دلوقتي من بعيد،، فستانك الابيض متلطخ بدم ولادك،، ومقطع من كل حتة،، كل جهة شدت في ناحية ومزعته، وللاسف بان لحمك الغالي للكل،،، ومين يسترك غير ولادك.!!!

ولادك دلوقتي مش فاضيين،،، سايبينك وبيضربوا في بعض،، وسايبينك فريسة لكل كلب ينهش في لحمك.!!!!

انا آسفة اني باشوفك كدة،،،، يـــا خــســاااررررة يـــااااا مــصــررررر... يـا خـسـااااارررة!!!!

Saturday, October 1, 2011

وبعدين... احنا رايحين على فين

قلنا ثورة، وعملناها... قلنا ديمقراطية،، وحرية وعدالة اجتماعية،،، وما فيش حاجة حصلت...
كل اللي حصل هو الهيصة،،، لا اللي كان بيشتغل عارف يكمل شغله،، ولا اللي كان يادوبك عارف يلاقي اللاضااا،،، والحالة بقت ضنك،،
واللي زاد وغطى هي الاعتصامات والاحتجاجات اللي مالية البلد،، زي ما تكون ماسورة احتجاجات وضربت،،، طب الناس دي كانت فين قبل كدة،،!!!
وهو الحل هي الاعتصامات دي،، ياعني هو الحل يبقى يا احنا نعيش يا اما الكل يموت،،، ؟؟؟ ماهو بالشكل دة لا اللي عايش كويس حيفضل كدة ولا اللي بيعاني حتتصلح حاله. بالعكس دة معناة ان فعلا "عجلة الانتاج فرقعت" وان فعلا الثورة "بتحدف شمال" وعايزة ضبط زوايا
وترصيص...
يا عــااااالم فوقوا بقى... احنا داخلين في مرحلة ما يعلم بيها اللا ربنا...!!!!

Monday, April 4, 2011

مصر غرقت في شبر مية

انتم مصدقين اللي حصل أمبارح والنهاردة؟؟؟ مصر غرقت في شبر مية، وديه أكيد مش أول مرة، لكن دلوقتي إحنا ممكن نتكلم ونبدي استياءنا. قبل كده كانت نفس الحكاية بتحصل، لكن محدش كان بيفتح بقه قعدنا سنين وسنين نستحمل، لكن دلوقتي لا. المشكلة أصلها مبتدتش دلوقتي، دي مبتدية من زمااااان أوي.. من ساعة ما ابتدينا نسكت على الشارع وأحواله، لما كان المفروض يتخطط مظبوط، ويتعمل صرف مظبوط للأحوال اللي زي دية أنا مش حطول عليكوا، أنا بس بلفت نظركوا لما كان في مصر احتلال بريطاني، الانجليز عملوا حساب يوم زي دة، وخططوا لشبكة صرف للمطر. لكن إحنا لما جينا وخدنا البلد، رصفنا الشوارع وسدينا فتحات الصرف وكأن مافيش حاجة معمولة من قبل كده وبدأنا من الاول وجديد. وطبعا علشان نعمل شبكة صرف للمطر تانية زي الانجليز ما عملوها، دة حيكلفنا فلوس كتير أوي، ومش بس كده، دحنا حيوقف حالنا حبة حلوين علشان نعيد التخطيط من أول وجديد. المشكلة مش مشكلة صرف مطر، ولا مشكلة مرور وخلافه، المشكلة اكبر بكتير. المشكلة فينا إحنا كمصريين. مشكلتنا إننا مبنشتغلش بإستراتيجية واضحة، ولا بخطة متكاملة، إحنا بنعمل زي الفراعنة، لما واحد ييجي يمسك الحكم لازم يطمس معالم كل اللي قبلة عملة، ومابنفكرش نبني ونكمل المشوار ومشكلة صرف المطر ديه واحدة من الأعراض الجانبية للسلوك دة. تخيلوا!!! دة معناه إن فيه مشاكل كتيييييررررة أوي بسبب نفس السلوك، اللي يا ريت نغيرة

Monday, March 14, 2011

YES or NO!! Does not matter نعم او لا مش هي دي المشكلة

Dear All,

Just a quick note about the referendum. For me, actually it does not matter YES or NO. What really matters for me is the percentage of participation. I want to see everyone who has a voice and who is allowed to voice out and VOTE, I want them to go and give their opinion, whether is YES or it is NO.
I want to see a new trend in Egypt, a proactive one that makes us use our right to vote, rather than stay passively at home and just shut up as we used to do.
I urge everyone to go and vote, regardless of the result, it is your chance to go and participate in the decision making of your country.

كتابة سريعة وعلى لهوجة مني. بالنسبة لي متفرقش اذا كان نعم أو لا. الاهم بالنسبة لي هو الجموع والعدد اللي حيصوت وبقول رأيه. انا عايزة اشوف كل اللي له الحق انه يصوت يروح ويصوت بغض النظر عن النتيجة، عايزة اشوف اتجاه جديد في مصر فيه الناس بتتحرك علشان تشترك في صنع القرار في مصر، مش بس قاعدين ساكتين في بيوتهم.
انا بأدعو كل واحد ينزل من بيته ويروح علشان يبدي رأيه، بغض النظر عن النتيجة، دي فرصتنا كلنا ان يبقى لنا يد ونشترك في صنع القرار لبلدنا.

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Before and After

Hello All,

It's been a long time since I wrote something in my blog page. I was busy living... and still I am. But really I was moved to write now after all the events that took place in Egypt.

I will write about my experience during this period in details, I will not comment or give an opinion; I will only give you my insight from my paradigm.

First I heard about the protests that would take place on the 25th of January. I thought it is a normal protests like the ones we've been hearing about for the past 4 years. I saw the news coverage in the TV, over all channels; they were very limited, and then it started to take more time in all news channels right after the Police started to fire teargas and rubber bullets towards the peaceful protesters.

At first I was shocked of what is happening, we felt we are watching an American movie or so.. but in fact it was Egypt streets.

After the 25th of January, I heard about the large protests that was to be held on Friday 28th of January. My husband and I went to see what is going on in Mostafa Mahmoud square, and we walked till mid of El Batal Ahmed Abdel Aziz, we saw lots of police cars in the street surrounding the protesters. We got a strange feeling of chaos and fear in our hearts, and we went back home and stayed.

In the evening, it was the mess, when we saw from our balcony the thugs and robbers breaking the shop in the building beside us. They even tried to enter this building, but a neighbor who had a gun, fired two bullets in the air to scare them, then all our neighbors went in the street to protect it from thugs.

All my body was shaking from fear. The first thing I thought of was my son. I do not want him to get hurt, I do not want him to see this mess, I want to protect him... I thought of our end and may be the way we will die, and I thought of many bad thoughts that came into my mind in this day. On that day, I decided that I can be no more silent and passive. It is my family that I might loose because of the mess, and I decided to take the side I really deeply believe in.

I started to write some sentences on the facebook to express what I believe in, and how I see things, and how to change the ugly fact. My husband was not welcoming the idea and was against me in the beginning. But as things progressed and time passed, both of us were convinced that this country needs a real change.
The two peeches given by the former president, were really depressing and were not coming in the right time. Everytime he went for a speech, the next act was ugly. The second speech was followed by an attack for thugs on camels and horses to the protesters of Tahrir Square. The third speech was really irritating and provoking; and made other people who are not into politics, to go and join the protesters. It made our life more complicated.

After the last speech of the vice president, where he announced that the president stepped down, we thought that this is a dream. We could not beleive what the protesters have achieved, and that this was a real people revolution. For a while we thought he is eternal and immortal, and that this was not true. We were very happy that he stepped down, we were not afraid of what is coming up like many of our friends who were thinking of all the mess we are living in till now; we were full of hope and courage, we thought that we want to be part of it, and we want to celebrate, not only this, we want to be part of the service to this country.

The example of what happened that I was following in my mind was: If I got a virus in my computer that is unbeatable, or cannot be removed, and it is about to ruin my files, then the best thing is to take a copy of my important files, and format my hard disk. Yes I will have to pay for a new software, and may be upgrade hardware, and I will spend time to format and install new programs and re-arrange my files; but at the end, it will be for the best, it will come back to me as a brand new well set computer. (Metaphorically speaking about the country).

It is time to "format" the country, and clean all "viruses". It is time to install a new "software" in a clean environment. But also, it is CRUCIAL to ALWAYS ALWAYS have an "Anti-virus" that is continuously updated to detect new viruses when they try to attack the system.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PAEt6QJJi-c&feature=player_detailpage

My family and I are optimistic about the future and we think it will be for the best of the country. Yes we will suffer in the short term, but it will be for the best on the medium and long term.

See you soon in a new blog.

Sunday, January 18, 2009

Madly in love !!!

I tried to find a strong word in all languages I know… I could not find any to describe my feeling…

I love you madly… and feel it inside me… sometimes words are inside me… but I cannot express well…

I try to express as much as I can… but I am not that kind of person who can say it… it shows in my care, may be… it shows sometimes in my behavior, probably… you can read it from my eyes, YES… but I cannot express it enough... I know… I am bad in expressing it in front of you… I do not have such a talent…

May be I will be able to say what I feel in writing… I feel it hauls out all what is inside me... and throws it between your arms and in front of you…

I can sense your feelings… I can feel your warmth, love from the heart and your soul beleaguered with thoughts in everything… the good and the bad side…
I gasp all of that inside me… and never let it go… I assimilate everything and try to understand… I breathe out our anger and bad thoughts… and sift all our feelings to reach its purity… its transparency… its absolution…

I want us to be strong… in front of everything that may face us… I want us to build our life together… to be ONE… having one eternal love… one mortal life… one split soul into two bodies…

Let us share the moments… the good and the bad ones… let us cherish life and living… with its ups and downs… let us leave the past behind us… as we have the present and the future to take care of… let us fall in love deeply.. Without anything hindering us.. Let us trust each other… trust the fact that we are there for each others always and forever…

I am deeply in love with you… and was never like that before… you are the one and only… and I cannot imagine my life without you…

I give myself the freedom of falling into you forever… my love and my everything…

For my heart and my soul my dear husband….

Yours… your wife...

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Busy Living!!!

It’s been a long time since I wrote anything or added anything to my blog… but I was really busy last period of time…

I was busy… I was busy living…. Living my life with all my senses…
Experiencing new things… crossing the bridge of life to its other side... checking it out... and taking my first steps into its long ever-lasting road…

Yes it is a long road to walk… where I have to check all its options… the good and the bad ones…

I already took the road and I am happy I did that… it will give me a new dimension to life and living… opening up new aspects and giving the needed inspiration to get going…

Giving me a good reason to live for… an insight for a bright future… hope and believe in tomorrow’s kind possibilities….

Cheers!!!

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

Pakistan… the promising land…!!

I always hear news about this part of the world, especially the bad news about strikes, wars, assassination, extremists…etc but I never heard about its beauty and potential of growth… From my experience in Pakistan I can tell you my impressions and notices about the country in the following few paragraphs…

This country is the land of promises… it is a promising land for future business… potential for growth is there, with some twist of the rules and regulations, this country will be just the right country to invest and take the business to the next level.

Illiteracy rate is relatively high; almost 30%; however, the other part is very well educated, they spend a lot on educating their children.

Pakistanis happen to be naturally born technology oriented people, and they have this attention to details, and they remember things… they have this computer mind inside their brains… however they have this systematic way of thinking… different than the way a 3rd world country will do… Like you should always translate what you say to their sequence of thinking, or what is called “within the systematic frame way of thinking’, so that you can get your communication through…

Women in Pakistan are beautiful and very well groomed, with their national dress and their sandals on, you can see their well groomed half covered hair, their beautiful well manicured hands and feet, as well as their nice fine jewelry that show over their shawls.

Food here is delicious, with lots of spices from this part of the world, and of course chili… you can always ask for less chili version of the food served to you… it is worth trying, in fact it is more delicious than most of the world’s cuisines…

This country is the country of the five senses… it nurtures your soul and stimulates your brain through using them… you just need to go with the flow…
I hope my experience was useful to you… it is really worth visiting…

Here is my experience in details...

When I heard I was going to Pakistan for a work-related visit… I was shocked… I thought I am going to the land of hell… as I heard in the news, it is not safe, full of strikes and political problems, that might threaten any foreigner…

I took my chances and started in the procedures of preparing for my trip, started my trip with a stop over in Dubai, where I had a full day there for a meeting – and of course shopping JJ, then headed to Islamabad…

The flight was an over night flight, reached Islamabad very early in the morning, very tired as I did not sleep, and very reluctant to go…

My first experience in Islamabad was the airport, which was not that pleasant, but incomparable to what you can get as treatment if you go to Europe or America.

Anyway, the moment I stepped out of the airport, I was received by the driver who was waiting for me to take me to the hotel; an old, luxurious and posh Serena hotel.
My room was not ready, but I was welcomed in a very nice way… they offered me breakfast and drinks till my room gets ready.

Went to my room; which turned out to be a suite; in the fourth floor, changed and went down for my working day. Oh my God… what I am seeing is different than what I expected… my perception about Pakistan is that it is a desert country, like most of the gulf area or the Middle East countries… Unlike what I expected, Islamabad is GREEN… greenery everywhere, with amazing landscapes and green mountains, very well maintained paved wide roads and streets, very organized traffic, and on the sides of the roads, you can see lucrative villas and housings. All buildings are one, two or three storey’s…

After my working day, I went back to the hotel to change and go out with some friends who live in Islamabad; they took me to the mountain, where I had dinner in Monal restaurant; an authentic Pakistani cuisine restaurant. The food was excellent, with its spices that gives the strong flavor to the palate and awakens your senses with its chili effect; complemented with the view of the whole city from the top of the mountain…

As Pakistan is considered as Islamic country, no alcohol is served with food… only few places; may be in hotels only; can serve you alcohol, if and only if you are a foreigner, but locals are not allowed to be served alcohol…

My second day was a full working day, however, I had the chance to go for shopping, especially for Pashmina; a very good quality scarves and shawl made of fine wool, very expensive to get from anywhere else than Pakistan; and some leather items.
Also I took nice pictures of the scenery and the green areas on my way back to the hotel. This day my friends took me to have a nice dinner at the Thai restaurant of the Marriott, called the Royal Elephant…

My third day in Islamabad was purely work… after I finished my working day, I had to take the flight to Lahore; another city in Pakistan, mainly in Punjab province…
The first thing that stroke me when I went out of Lahore airport was the humidity… the weather is humid, but rainy in the same time… it is more likely to be tropical…

Lahore is known to be the city of culture… history everywhere you go, starting from old buildings, to mosques and forts….

I only had to stay for one full day… work team of Lahore took me to have lunch in a French bistro cuisine restaurant in the main luxurious part of the city, then we went for a city tour, where we had the chance to visit the fort and Badshahi mosque…
And like any other mosque, you need to take off your shoes while going inside, and hand it to the person in charge of keeping the shoes… they usually give you a number for that…
The visit was worth the time spent there, but when we went out of the mosque and asked for our shoes, the guy who keeps them was bargaining to get 100 USD from us… we laughed, because even if you want to buy a shoes, it will not cost you that amount of money… then we ended up giving him 30 RPS. Which is equivalent to ½ a dollar.

I went back to the hotel; which was not the best experience for me as I really did not like it; had dinner in one of the restaurants, where there was an Indian dancer performing during dinner time… had my last meal in Pakistan… then went to my room to pack and go… On our way to the airport, it was raining like never before… as I’ve never seen such a rain in my entire life… non-stop very heavy strong rain, and the weather was sooo warm… as I said before it is a tropical weather.


Until my next blog… wishing you an enjoyable and safe trip….

Sunday, July 27, 2008

Love Worm….!!!

On my way to my 10 days work trip… thinking of life around me… flash backs are coming in front of me… thinking of the last few days or may be weeks that I have had…

What happened to me… suddenly I found myself in Disney land… the land of fairies… replacing Cinderella, snow white, beauty in her role with the beast… :):)

I was kidnapped from my world…. Eloped with him to his special private world… with future hopes and dreams… is he the right person… can he be the one I was waiting for my entire life??? Donno…. May be he is the one and ONLY…

Do I have doubts about that?? Of course yes… am I doubting life and living??? Yes I do…
Am I worried about the future??? Yes I am… Are we going anywhere with our relationship??? Yes we may…

I cannot tell I loved him at first sight… first sight love does not make sense to me and does not exit… but… I do not know what happened… I found myself in his world suddenly… I left my life behind me for him… left my world… my network… my outings… even my family commitment for him…

I went to the end of the world for him… went out of my way for him… he made me forget my pain and my first love that stayed with me for a very long time… I forgot the torture of love and walked towards its passage again… without thinking of what will happen… I just crave for him…

When he is not around… I feel emptiness… when I am not with him.. I feel lost… he turned my life into sweetness and happiness… regardless of what people may say…

I see him as an angel… my heart keeper and the guardian of my love… I see him as a man of all seasons and centuries… I see him as the pyramids… I see him as the knight on his white horse, coming to rescue me from the evil…

He treated me as I always wished… he gave me the attention, the care, the love and the passion that I always wanted…

I admit it… I got the love worm…

And I am happy it happened that way…

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Mesmerized….!!!!

Sitting in a comfy armchair, thinking of us… our relation and our old time together… the good and bad memories we had together… thought of the nice words we whispered… and the ugly words we threw on each others face…

Remembering how I used to quiver in front of you… from the love I had for you in my heart… I was simply mesmerized, thanking God of blessing me with you being in my life…
Memories of us were tantalizing my feeling towards you… how filled I was with love and passion towards you… how I used to love you to madness… how alluring it was to have you around me…

Thinking of all that… my love and passion to you is not the same anymore… my feeling towards you changed to neutral… regardless of the circumstances that led to that… you are not there anymore… you are not part of my system… you are only there when needed…

I found my passion somewhere else… my love shifted to another direction… was captivated by another magnet… fulfilling and rewarding… rapt with passion and love towards me…
No more thinking of you as love… just thinking of my state of passionate rhapsody when you were around, and how to get there one more time…
It used to be painful thinking of us back… but believe me… this pain turned positive towards my new heart passion… flourishing with hope and confidence in tomorrow’s nebulous unknown destiny…

Wish you all the best in life… :) :) !!!

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

The Edge....!!

Listening to good old days French songs… thinking of what is happening around me… analyzing all of it… starting from the least and tiniest thing… starting to rationalize things…

Feeling content and happy of where I am now… what I reached over the years… thinking of myself and rewinding my life tape… watching it in front of me…

I’ve been through a lot in my life… which mold me to what I am now… with all my qualities and drawbacks… my character pros and cons… my behavior and reactions…

Thought of my early stage of life… how scared I was… insecure… vulnerable to harm and break like thin glass…

I took the hard path of life… had to go through different tests and experiences… that turned the thin glass into rock solid, hard steel... but also turned my inner to soft paste… shaped to the curves of love and passion… carving its body and soul with feelings…

Sometimes confused… sometimes wild… sometimes eccentric and irrational…
Other times well arranged… wise and calm with a high logic of common sense…
It’s my edge… my satisfaction and my contentment…

Good luck finding your edge :):)

Monday, March 17, 2008

Light Soul

I woke up in the morning with a smile on my face… happy and filled with passion to life… felt my light heart reflecting on my home mirrors… showing a light coming out of my eyes… my face muscles are so relaxed… although I did not have enough sleep…

I had one of my very best days… met people and friends… but above all that, and what is most important… is that I met a soul… a pure one… speaking a little but from the heart… when saying anything… you can tell this soul is not bluffing… such a quality is rarely found in this world of benefits and lies…

A light soul… sometimes I find it observing… or watching other souls… and sometimes I see age showing, blended with discrete wisdom and experience…
Other times… I see a child’s soul inside… a happy one that wants to play and get out of its body to be free to fly high…

I can see the pearl hidden inside… the jewel that shines and reflects lines of rays... nurturing the surrounding with natural light… I can feel warmth hiding behind its shyness… I can read between the curves and the lines of the body reflexes…

A beautiful soul… to keep it in the heart always…!!!

Tuesday, March 4, 2008

Ballerina

Putting her ballet shoes on… tying their straps around her muscled leg in a crossed way… putting on her fluffy slim dress made of thin transparent off-white cloth… preparing herself to go on stage to perform her dance…

A beautiful tall girl in an elegant fit and make-up… she is waiting in the backstage for her turn to go on stage…. Looking at her colleagues from the side drops of the stage… seeing them performing to their best knowledge…

Her heart beats faster and faster while counting the minutes to her entrance… I must be the best… my entrance should impress my viewers… I do not want to miss any move or forget any part… she keeps on thinking of everything and every possibility… she is calling harm and failure with her mind…

Suddenly she denied the idea of failure and started to boost her moral by encouraging herself through performance of others… see I can do better… I learned this move before… I’ve been there done that several times… I am the queen of stage… I won’t miss it… Her heart beats faster and faster as she approaches her entrance… her entrance is in a second… she just turned red… She moved herself in a very nervous move to pull her body onto the stage in front of her audience…

She entered the stage in a holistic grandiose that got audience attention… she managed to attract their vision to her and keep it on her… She started performing on stage… she was moving like a butterfly… a feather in the air… in a very flexible and harmonized strength and synchronization…

She was smiling to audience… like a bird enjoying freedom of flying out its golden cage… a child taking its first steps to the new world… Every move she makes gives her more confidence in the next move and in her capability… she still cannot see the viewers from the stage light but she feels it…


She is about to finish her moves… and do the finale… her finale was as grand and impressive as her entrance… audience stood up and clapped hard for her… thanking her for the time and effort spent to make them enjoy the performance… she did it… she managed to reach the top and be the best… she finally got what she wants... audience attention, hearts and souls with her…

Wishing to be a life Ballerina…!!

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

No more to say…

No more to say… nothing more to feel…
I was always the good face... that gives a lot… that loves a lot… but not anymore…
The good face was mistreated… and does not believe in life anymore…
The good face is no longer there… instead… you will find a face of wax… very pleasant but no life in it…

It will take a huge effort to make this face turn back to good… as it does not feel it anymore…
It took this face a long time to trust life… love… and people… and now it is back to be expressionless… lifeless… and very tough…
I always had the pride... the dignity and the self love… and I will always have them… I cannot live without them… or else I will die…
No more pain… I do not deserve it… no more thinking of something that might cause it… I am more precious to myself than this… no more misunderstanding… I am a person that should be accepted as I am… a package… take it or leave it….
No more excuses… I do not buy them…

If you ever really cared… you would have crossed oceans for me… you would have stepped the extra mile for me… you would have contained my fears and eased them away…

If you ever really cared… you would have ignored minor mistakes… you would have understood my good intensions… and you would have forgiven silliness…

If you ever respected me… you would have just communicated... and never ran away or vanished… you would have confronted me… even if you are not ready for the extra step… you would have told me what you think… instead of assuming and acting upon assumptions…

Enough… enough of my feelings towards you… enough of my love and my passion… let me save them for someone who might appreciate me as I am… accept me as I am… and tolerate the world around me…
However…. You will always have my respect… my friendship… and my good intensions towards you… I will never be evil or mean to you… this is not in me…

Sunday, January 20, 2008

My World..!!!

With all the love in the world… the passion inside me… the feelings towards you… I pray for you…

I pray for the good to happen.... the sky to rain… kindness to surround you…
I pray to God to protect you… from evil spirit and bad eye… from hate and envy…
I pray to God to save your soul from bad intentions… to guard your mind and heart from anger... I pray for you..
I pray to God to be the best… to reach the top…
I pray to God to take your fear away… to give you courage and stamina
I pray to God to give you the patience and the passion to do what it takes… to take the right decision
I pray to God... for you to face the devil... to stand for the right...
I pray to God to weapon you.... in front of your enemies to beat them...
I pray to God for you to live in health… wealth and happiness…
I pray to God to save the ones you love.... the ones you share life with and the ones that depend on you...
I pray to God to save my love for you... I pray to God to be with me… in my world… forever…

May our prayers be accepted for that day :):)