No more to say…

No more to say… nothing more to feel…
I was always the good face... that gives a lot… that loves a lot… but not anymore…

The good face was mistreated… and does not believe in life anymore…
The good face is no longer there… instead… you will find a face of wax… very pleasant but no life in it…

It will take a huge effort to make this face turn back to good… as it does not feel it anymore…
It took this face a long time to trust life… love… and people… and now it is back to be expressionless… lifeless… and very tough…
I always had the pride... the dignity and the self love… and I will always have them… I cannot live without them… or else I will die…

No more pain… I do not deserve it… no more thinking of something that might cause it… I am more precious to myself than this… no more misunderstanding… I am a person that should be accepted as I am… a package… take it or leave it….
No more excuses… I do not buy them…

If you ever really cared… you would have crossed oceans for me… you would have stepped the extra mile for me… you would have contained my fears and eased them away…

If you ever really cared… you would have ignored minor mistakes… you would have understood my good intensions… and you would have forgiven silliness…

If you ever respected me… you would have just communicated... and never ran away or vanished… you would have confronted me… even if you are not ready for the extra step… you would have told me what you think… instead of assuming and acting upon assumptions…

Enough… enough of my feelings towards you… enough of my love and my passion… let me save them for someone who might appreciate me as I am… accept me as I am… and tolerate the world around me…

However…. You will always have my respect… my friendship… and my good intensions towards you… I will never be evil or mean to you… this is not in me…

Warm Rain

A long drive in the streets of Cairo at night… A warm rainy weather… with less traffic… and more of a winter mode… driving along the bridge and listening to inspiring love songs that reflects my state of mind those days…

Looking through my dripping car window, reflecting the street and cars light and glowing in my eyes… remembering backwards… the good old days memories of the far past… the recent memories and events… the people I met there… the fun we shared…. the talk we had…

Thinking forward… listening to the voice of my head… feeling the beats of my heart…. reasoning my life…. seeing the future like a movie in front of me… that still needs fine tuning.. :):)
My long drive went to an end to meet a friend… a friend who will listen to me… who will give me the tip of the day unconditionally… this is what I need…

It was a relief meeting my friend… talking out loud… discussing things while enjoying our freshly brewed coffee… my friend my savior and my advisor…. my buddy and my mentor…

We talked about memories… old past and recent past… we talked about life… love… passion… agony… fears… feelings… practicality… future and the unknown… the do’s and don’ts… and most of all… the present…

We left our table… heading back to the car… walked in the sinking streets… under the pouring skies.... we were thinking... we enjoyed our talk… we satisfied our friendship for a day… now it is time to go back home…

I took the drive back through the long bridge… but this time… I felt warmth… looking through the dripping car window is giving me hope… is painting a smile on my face… as tomorrow will be a new glowing day…

Wishing you a lovely day everyday :):)