No more to say…

No more to say… nothing more to feel…
I was always the good face... that gives a lot… that loves a lot… but not anymore…

The good face was mistreated… and does not believe in life anymore…
The good face is no longer there… instead… you will find a face of wax… very pleasant but no life in it…

It will take a huge effort to make this face turn back to good… as it does not feel it anymore…
It took this face a long time to trust life… love… and people… and now it is back to be expressionless… lifeless… and very tough…
I always had the pride... the dignity and the self love… and I will always have them… I cannot live without them… or else I will die…

No more pain… I do not deserve it… no more thinking of something that might cause it… I am more precious to myself than this… no more misunderstanding… I am a person that should be accepted as I am… a package… take it or leave it….
No more excuses… I do not buy them…

If you ever really cared… you would have crossed oceans for me… you would have stepped the extra mile for me… you would have contained my fears and eased them away…

If you ever really cared… you would have ignored minor mistakes… you would have understood my good intensions… and you would have forgiven silliness…

If you ever respected me… you would have just communicated... and never ran away or vanished… you would have confronted me… even if you are not ready for the extra step… you would have told me what you think… instead of assuming and acting upon assumptions…

Enough… enough of my feelings towards you… enough of my love and my passion… let me save them for someone who might appreciate me as I am… accept me as I am… and tolerate the world around me…

However…. You will always have my respect… my friendship… and my good intensions towards you… I will never be evil or mean to you… this is not in me…

Judging the air...

I was not in hallucinating when I said this word… “Judging the air”… I meant what I said…

It was truly what is happening with all of us… people just LOVE to JUDGE others… crave for it… without knowing the truth about them… just being judgmental… as if they are “gods”... who never do mistakes…

People judge you because “simply” they cannot be you… they wish but they cannot… they try but they fail… so the simplest thing for them is to criticize and judge you… condemn you “guilty as charged”… to hang you for the smallest mistake… or for what they consider a mistake in their point of view…

They might even judge the air… judge anything that moves around them…. But they never think of taking a deep breath, check themselves and what they are doing.... or what they will be doing if they were put in the same situation as the other judged person…

I can say it’s a disease… disease of acting “gods” and assessing others….

If we really think of it from a different view… if we just stop, take our time and then see the truth about everything… if we really care.. or just judging the air…

Until the next blog…