Warm Rain

A long drive in the streets of Cairo at night… A warm rainy weather… with less traffic… and more of a winter mode… driving along the bridge and listening to inspiring love songs that reflects my state of mind those days…

Looking through my dripping car window, reflecting the street and cars light and glowing in my eyes… remembering backwards… the good old days memories of the far past… the recent memories and events… the people I met there… the fun we shared…. the talk we had…

Thinking forward… listening to the voice of my head… feeling the beats of my heart…. reasoning my life…. seeing the future like a movie in front of me… that still needs fine tuning.. :):)
My long drive went to an end to meet a friend… a friend who will listen to me… who will give me the tip of the day unconditionally… this is what I need…

It was a relief meeting my friend… talking out loud… discussing things while enjoying our freshly brewed coffee… my friend my savior and my advisor…. my buddy and my mentor…

We talked about memories… old past and recent past… we talked about life… love… passion… agony… fears… feelings… practicality… future and the unknown… the do’s and don’ts… and most of all… the present…

We left our table… heading back to the car… walked in the sinking streets… under the pouring skies.... we were thinking... we enjoyed our talk… we satisfied our friendship for a day… now it is time to go back home…

I took the drive back through the long bridge… but this time… I felt warmth… looking through the dripping car window is giving me hope… is painting a smile on my face… as tomorrow will be a new glowing day…

Wishing you a lovely day everyday :):)

Ownership or Partnership…???

Owning what you want!!! Does this make you want it more…. Or will just give you the sense of that you got what you want…. Then you lay back and start to be reluctant of keeping what you have… treating it as fore granted….

Ownership vs. Partnership…. Do we really understand the difference??? Do we really care to understand it??? Are we ready to give away the lust of ownership… to enjoy partnership???

I can explain it in two sentences… like a flower you see in a garden and you get attached to it… you visit it everyday… you care about it and you water it… you make sure that it is safe… and that has enough sun to keep it alive… The flower is not yours… but it is attached to you…. It feels your care and appreciates it…. It blossoms for you... it smiles at you…. It spreads happiness around to all who sees it….

Or… like a flower in a garden and you get attached to it… but this time you crop it to take it home with you and to put it in a vase… you will water it… you will make sure it is safe… but this time… the flower is imprisoned in the vase… taken care of… but not smiling at you… and eventually it will fade… faster than the one still in the garden….

All of us crave for ownership … but life has more meaning than just owning something/someone and taking it/him/her fore granted… as we are human beings… the moment we take things fore granted… we loose interest… and we try to search for another thing to own… to hunt down… to get….

Life is about sharing…. partnering… caring… life is about getting what you want in your circle of interest… and still wanting it forever… continuing to do the effort for partnership to stay… for care to give... for love to live… for an ever after life… the what/who you partnered with….

I worked hard to set them apart in my life… still some things need to be owned.... and some Lives need simply to be shared…!!!

Wishing you an enjoyable moment sharing… and happy New Year :):)

Cheers!!!

Cracks allover

Thought of sharing this thought with you…. I was always the person who walks the whole nine yards in everything I did…. Putting effort and passion together to have a perfect outcome… It is rewarding somehow when you see the fruit of your effort in front of you… but do people around you really care??? Do they bother to see effectiveness and efficiency… or they are just filling the gaps and completing their papers “as we say in Arabic”

I stayed for a long time trying to make people understand… but found out that they are stubborn enough to stop listening or watching things…. They reminded me of cracks we see in anything… like walls… glass… or floor…

I started seeing people in a different way… I started reading their “cracks”… which are different from a person to another… once you read their cracks… you can understand and value where do their ideas… and perception of life come from… and you will be able to deal with them accordingly…

Cracks are different and they might be in different locations… but at the end of the day… each one holds his/her crack… and tries to hide it with shields or mend it with temporary molds, that will soon be fallen down… but they never heal them, or try to see how to mend them from their roots.

I met people with brain cracks (the most dangerous unhealed kind of crack)… they just see life from a wrong paradigm… that makes them perceive everything as a wrong thing around them… those people “in my point of view” are introverts or at least people who hurt others in every step they walk… they do not see this… but in fact they do…
They are also judgmental… since they see things differently and they want things to go their way… and if not… then curses will be poured on life and people around them… You just need to avoid argumentative talks with them.. or taking their opinion… they will always see the empty part of the glass in everything….

Heart cracks… this is the easiest crack to mend and heal… this is a temporarily crack… that affects the heart… usually through relationships… heart breaks… annoying circumstances (like death or sickness)…
We are blessed to be able to forget… and start all over again…

Defects from social standards and value… beliefs and environmental surrounding… leads to personality cracks…. This is a type where people have double standards in everything… they say something… and they do another thing… they convince you with ideas they will never apply…
This is due to inheriting wrong ideas… it is not easy to mend or heal… but by effort… exposure… and bitter experiences… they can flip all over… to a better shape… still some residues will remain at the bottom of the character…
People like this… need help and support… because they learn by experience… they go through hell and live in it... they are the victims of society in a way…

We all have cracks… we might have a combination of personality, heart and brain cracks… but the percentages are different….
We only need to know where our cracks are located… and try to mend instead of hiding them… to heal their wounds... instead of taking a temp. pain killer… clean them.. instead of staying with living residues….
We are only too weak to admit it… or to show it to others… we want to prove that we are always right and PERFECT… while perfection is not part of our reality…

I am not writing this to judge anyone… I am only stating a fact of life… I am one of the people who have cracks as well… I am just trying to figure them out to be able to fix them… As long as I live… I will keep on fixing them…

Good luck with finding your crack…

Have a nice day !!!!

The Bead…. The Seed… and what it needs….

I am here for you… to be your man… to be your shelter… your sense of security….
I am here… to put the seed of love… to water and grow it…… to get its fruit….
I am here…. to bead the fruit into the chain of life… to give it the flavor and spice…
I am here… to spice it up… to make it for… to help it out…
I am here because it is worth the battle… I am here because of you…
I am here to do what it takes… to see what it needs… and to find the way…
I am here because I respect you... I am here to protect you...
I am not here for eternity… but since I am here for sometime… I should be the ONE and only for you..... Believe me it will lead to eternity…
I am here because you’re my woman… with all the meaning of the word…
I am here waiting for you.. my woman… to comfort you… to pamper you… and to love you…
I am here… just because I love you…

A message from a real man…. :):)

Devil’s mode…

Blood and fire…. coming out of dark black fog… steam everywhere…. It’s the Devil’s mode….

Thinking evil… be mean to life… have the guts to fire back pain and bitterness…. I am in the Devil’s mode…

Shrinking the world… ignoring opinions… telling lies… finding others weaknesses... abuse the situation…. The Devil is here inside….

Sucking blood from a kind vein… to quench my vampire’s thirst… to change the mode… to beat earth… the Devil is enjoying it….

No more thirsts… no more fire… no more blood… the Devil is now gone…

Touching the skies….!!!!

I once touched the skies… only once… I once found my precious pearl… when I dove deep in the ocean…

I had the chance to meet whoever was there…. Waiting to receive and welcome me… to pave my way through… and lead me to where I want and intend to go…

Only Once… and I wish it will happen again... touching the skies or finding the pearls is RISKY…. But DOABLE…

I should be a spirit… free from its prison called “body” to be able to fly high… and go wherever I can… I should be a vapor… ready to leave… to a higher and a better place… whenever and wherever possible…

I should be a leaf… carried out through the wind… embraced within its breeze… to rest in its new place… watered by the skies’ tears of dew…

I should fly off ground… walk on air… think out loud…

Only then… I will have the chance … to touch the skies… and find my precious pearls again..!!!

Try to find your pearl of the day :):)

Smile!!… you are on earth :):)

Whatever happens…. Keep the smile on your face…
Your smile will wash your soul… will give you hope and trust in tomorrow’s dark side…

With your smile.. there will be always a light at the end of the dark tunnel of life…

Smile at the least thing… even when your heart is full of grieve and feeling pain…

Smile for the good to come…. The flower to blossom… the baby to be born... the love to grow…

Smile into the face of the devils and the demons… believe me it will dissolve their fire and melt their anger…

Smile at the problems you face… eventually they will be solved…. As long as we are on earth… nothing is called a problem…

Smile to live… to love… to fight… to succeed… to be yourself…
Smile to conquer silence… to beat death… to shake destiny… to threaten evil…

This is exactly what I want to live… keep my smile on my face…
Because… we are just on earth !!!

Have a smiling day :):)