Final results

At last, and after a very long 6 months of doing nothing but watching TV, the doctor was merciful enough to tell me that I am OK, and that I can walk with no crutches.. of course I still do not have the guts to do that, but at least I know that I can do it...:):):)

Now I am free to do many things.. I was imprisoned in my body, or in fact, in my leg hehe...
now I can walk on my prison and build a castle... or may be a fortress... depends on what I will do next in my life...

A hard lesson to take... however.. it gave me more confidence... and made me appreciate many things.. even the tiny ones that we take fore granted...

I now appreciate health, life quality and, above all that "time"... but in a different meaning.

We always hear that time is very important, we should not waste time, we should be multi-skilled to do many things in the same time, we should worry about the big picture rather than details... In fact I say the opposite now... time can be a healer, can give you more space to think, can give you enough of it to relax, and above all that, can give you confidence in tomorrow.

Time.. the factor that we cannot stop no matter what happens, does not work against us, in the opposite, it works with us if we use it the right way.. of course wasting time is no good... but also rushing things and running will make our hearts stop.. and damage our life.

I learned that I should give everything its time... and forget time miserliness... we will never be able to save some time aside, we will always be able to consume and spend time.. so at least we should spend it in a balanced way.. some time to be spent at work.. some time to be spent in leisure and fun, and some time for our soul...

This lesson is well absorbed now... I really should work on my life in a way that make me apply the learned lesson..

Now I am happy and I am trying to enjoy this happy moment (again back to time)... so I will take my time to enjoy it...

Will leave you now and will continue later...

Enjoy reading and please give me your comments.

Waiting forever

Imagine yourself waiting forever.. waiting for the result of an exam.. or a project you have presented to your boss.. or even an application for masters.. imagine the way you think and the anxiousness you are in when you wait for the result..

Guess what... I am in this mode since the past 6 months.. just checking every month what will be the result of my x-rays... as I told you before, I broke my leg and I am waiting for the healing..

Although it is taking much longer than I expected, it seems to me that I needed this long vacation.. It's been a long time since I had such a long vacation... for the past 11 years I was working like a dog.. may be the dog was taking a rest, but me .. "no way"..

This "must have" vacation made me think and re-think of my rythem of life. I was too fast to enjoy life.. and I am now re-considering my way of living and thinking of changing it.. or in other words, reshaping it to a better shape, rather than the too much work I used to exhaust myself in..

I am still on crutches and I am going tomorrow to the doctor.. when I talked to my sister I told her that it may be one of three answers: either I will be on one crutch rather than 2, or I will stay on both crutches for sometime, or will have to have a fourth operation..

I will see what the doctor will have to say and then inform you tomorrow of all the happenings.

Now, it is too late, and I am sleepy.. I will go to sleep now.. good night....

Going on 31

Born in December, I was really surprized when I reached my birthday. It suddenly shoked me that I reached this age and suddenly, the reality hit me... 31 is not a bad number though, however, when you think of it as just a number, not an age.

the year 30 was not the best year in my life, I had a terrible accident, broke my leg, and had three operations so far... I hope 31 comes with good news rather than more operations.

I am now relaxing and enjoying the "must have" vacation that I am in because of the accident and I am trying as much as I can to explore ideas to make me busy, such as doing crochet, chating on msn, sending nice emails to my friends and so on.

I have to go to the doctor tomorrow and hear what he has to say for my progression... I will definitely write about it tomorrow as soon as I know any news (either good or bad).. writing is like a therapy to me..

I feel more comfortable writing things and just thowing them in the air hehe... "this is a metaphoric expression" I am sending them out in the internet so that everyone can read it...
I hope I will receive some comments or ideas of how to spend my time at home...

See you tomorrow... :):)